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03/15/12(Thu)04:22 No.600761While the show has been wonderful this season, some things really took it out of me and I've enjoyed it less than last season.
First, the paired episodes focusing on one pony (or pair of sisters) rustled my johnnies. The episodes seemed to be too slow in coming, then too fast after the winter hiatus. The webrips didn't happen the same way, and I enjoy the episodes most when they're direct exports from Flash with perfect sound quality and no artifacts. Megaupload went down, we got tossed into the sea of piss, and Derpy got screwed - twice.
I stopped coming to MLPG for several weeks while my computer was down, and I got into situations IRL which compromised my psyche and my heart. It hurts, /co/, and I don't know how to get back to Equestria. (inb4 an hero.) I just want to hug each of the mane six, nonsexually, and be their friends again.
And that's really the heart of it. Calling MLPFiM "self-medication" was a foul lie even as it was a glib truth. I felt they were actually my friends. And then I went and killed Rarity. Twice. Once by zombie, and once by a spell she cast. Why do I kill the things I love? Do I feel I don't deserve them? Do I anticipate tragedy with fictional loss, to pre-cope when my own family members eventually die? I have two wonderful parents and two lovely sisters, and I scream inside with each year that passes, knowing there's a 4/5 chance one of them will preceed me and I don't know what will happen to me when that day comes.
And the only thing that holds joy for me now is >fanfiction. |