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01/26/12(Thu)11:35 No.33652660>that feel when you realise your entire life is stagnating and everyone around you is finding not only jobs but careers and you have about a million different choices to make and the world wants yout to make them NOW but you just want to curl into a little ball and hide from it all, so you do and the world punishes you for it, and the worst part is there is always a tiny glimmer of hope that keeps you from descending into rampant alcoholism or suicide, and you just wish it would go away so you had some excuse for why your life is going nowhere, but you really dont so you chalk up everything thats going wrong to some problem you have that millions of other people have but are dealing with just fine so its not really an excuse, is it? And you dont have any friends since you left school, but they are still friends with each other, and worse than the hurt, worse than only finding about parties when their smiling faces are uploaded to facebook, is WHY they arent interested in you anymore. It would be better if they didnt like you, but their was just an ambiguous drifting apart and if you just had some reason you could fix it, like it was some part of you but isnt and no one will tell you, so there is nothing to fix, and its just you alone all day and you try to play videogames to take your mind off of it, but every game is the same quality as years ago but shit now because you are drepressed and angry and you cant get lost in anything for too long anymore and you come here to belong to a collective but you dont really belong. You dont belong to anything, and you try to blame it on aspergers and insomnia and bad people skills, but really you are just sad. You are one, sad little kid that everyone wants to be an adult and you cant take it, and being sad makes you sad and you cant stop being sad |
